I think that the hardest part of being lonely is not being able to have someone who you can share your day with. Just a simple conversation about your day and how it went. What matters most is that someone gets to hear all about it. It’s just really different when you can walk through something tough with someone by your side.
I don’t how will I express my feelings but right now tears are starting to fall down from my eyes. Haaaaiy. As much as I can, I will not mention names.
I just wanted to say “fuck you” to the guy who stole my friends’ time, care, and attention from me!!! You know what, I’ve been trying my best but you always appear to my eyes whenever I’m with her. Can you please give us sometime to enjoy and try not to bother us?!?! Maybe she chose you, no!! She really chose you and you know what makes it more painful? I was taken for granted because she knows that I can and I will do everything for her. And you asshole never reconsider my feelings and never imagine how will I feel! Ugh! I treated you like a brother but what did you do? It was fine for me to be her lover but you stole everything. Nothing was left. I never imagine that everything will end up like this.
Don’t worry I’m done. You can have her and mind you!!! You chose her and her friends over us your long time buddies!! Many people might say that I didnt understand you but I do, you were just really an asshole who never knew what is really going on. Anyway, congratulations you won again for the 2nd time.
Daming dami ko na ngang iniisip at problema nadagdag ka yang PUTANG INANG feelings na yan. Damn!! Nahihirapan na ako, bakit nanunubok ang tadhana, gusto ko ng sumuko. Sobrang napapagod na ko. :((
1. Being ignored
2. Those people you expect to be with are not present
3. You fail to make her/them happy
4. Others made her/them happy
5. Left behind
There’s no use of keeping things to myself, I finally decided to come back here on tumblr cause theres no place where I can say all my feelings. After 1 year and 6 months of being quiet I wanna break my silence. I’ve been so busy with my studies and organizations after my Dad died a year ago and stop writing here on tumblr. I want now to shout what and how I feel.
Sobra lang akong nasasaktan. :’( I choose to be stupid and taken for granted. Buong buhay ko nagmahal ako, nag alaga ako at nag ingat ako. Maaaring God has reasons but I still don’t know. I want to know. Ansakit sakit. :’(